Letters From A Silent Observer

I really hate this question. I don’t understand its purpose… What if I am, what if I’m not? If thats what determines whether you follow me, I’d rather you didn’t. Not that its anyones business but I guess I consider myself bisexual. I have always liked both men and women. I tend to favor women but I’m really not a huge fan of labels. Love is love.

• How much do you weigh?

Why would you even ask me that? What benefit is that knowledge to you? Would you like my height too? How about my ssn? I am not happy nor ashamed of the size that I am. Would I rather be smaller? Considering I want to be a Marine, yes being thin would help. Also, I’d like to get more tattoos… but other than that I really don’t care. Being larger is not always healthy and I wouldn’t advise making it a goal to strive for but I life a pretty healthy life. Believe it or not there are healthy ways to become this large. But lets be honest, its none of your business. 

I guess you could call it semi-professional. I have been paid for my make up services but have never been formally trained. I’d love to work on a counter or for a photographer but need to go to school and build up my resumé before that can happen.

I was 17. It took me longer than I would have liked but it was mostly because I didn’t want to admit it to myself. Being gay or bisexual or basically anything other than straight is like drawing a target on your forhead. People who don’t even know you judge you and there is a stigma associated with you. To be fair though, if someone doesn’t like you for your sexuality, I can guarantee if it wasn’t that, someone else wouldn’t like you for some other reason. Everyone has something about themselves that someone else isn’t going to like, parents included. Most are never happy. People make the mistake of trying to live to appease others but in doing that they make themselves miserable. Once I realized that, I slowly started telling people. Learning to take yourself for who you are definitely helps the process and is how I was able to finally do it. 

I live in NJ, near NYC…I’m going to leave it at that.

nope.

If anyone asking about MY sexuality needs advice themselves I’d be more than happy to help. I don’t pretend to be an expert but I’m here if you’d like.

XO

-The Silent Observer